disintegrate

rate

and now you take priority
in my life, may you be seen
your word will i heel
knowing that you first loved me
i will let you lead

so impose your way upon me
i got nothing else to hide
i have been waiting for this moment for you to override

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i've been allowing myself to fall back too far.
i need to rethink about my priorites in life.
i am floating once again. :p

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i need YOU.

FLY!

there is a purpose for everything that is happening right now. (:

it feels really depressing reading sad entries from pple's blogs. But who am i to judge when i do write sad boring entries myself. but they are really damn sad entries. It is like they will die any moment from their sadness. :/

praise God for today's worship. i couldnt have ask for more because You gave me so much more to live for. You opened my eyes once again. (:

a brand new week ahead. perservere, jeanette. (:

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Saved by your mercy
Found in your grace
Totally surrended to your embrace
and there is nothing more than you

four days have passed so fast and this little mid semester break of mine has finally come to an end. i have to go back to school tml refreshed and ready to study again. yes, i do love staying at home and doing what jeanette does best - slacking. it was a time of reflection and time away from everything. (: everything in YOUR own timing, Lord.

played badminton on wed with choi and ruth. I din suck that bad after all. i thought i would have missed most of the shots after a hiatus of 4 months. yes, we are going to make it a point to play each week. i really do miss playing the sport. (: but my back is aching right now and i find it hard to bend down. HAHA.

went to watch the longest yard with choi today. i was complaining that it would suck and the preview looked boring in the first case but it turned out to be one of the best movies i ever watched. i never liked watching american football but this movie has changed my perspective. But the show was more than a sport, it was about justice and it was about pride above all. " Ex convicts are also human beings." This line strucked me the most as i watched and enjoyed every moment of the show. GO WATCH. (:

maybe time away from you is good. no pressure to perform. no pressure to watch what i say. i want to see your happy self again. i cannot stand and watch you eat your life away. i hope you realised that you have so much more to live for. Look around you. :p

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FLY.

i am back.

Lord reign in me
Reign in your power
Over all my dreams
In my darkest hour
You are the Lord of all I am
So won't you reign in me again

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one week. that was all we could fufill. it is quite scary and we nearly destroyed things again. my mind kept saying IGU but one simple prayer changed everything. God answers in miraculous ways. i dont know what it will take but i know God has plans for this friendship. (:

one balloon. up into the sky carrying my wishes. Praying and Hoping that YOU above do see it. whatever happens, i know there is hope for a new beginning in YOU.

it is yet another update for this week. i realised that i am getting lazy to update so i am just trying to make it a point to blog weekly or whenever i feel like blogging. oops.

school is getting better. at least i had a good talk with my brother and he has showed some enlightenment on my uni life. You just have to make a point to socialise in order to lead a really fun uni life. (: even though i dont really like the thought of making hi-bye friends but i know that in due time, God will give me the time to develop friendships with these people. :D

oh yah, i got my laptop already and i have been downloading lots of shows daily. they are my little things in life that makes me happy. And i need to do things that i like in order to stay sane. HAHA.

tough week ahead. i got a english test and a PS presentation on friday. And i am not even prepared. But God works and He will continue to work. i just have to do my best so that He can do the rest.

let me walk by faith and not by sight.
bring me back and strengthen me.

off to study.

yes, i am so glad that the weekend has finally arrived. today was simply a really bad day. i am tired mentally, emotionally and physically. i dont know anymore.

i am tired. i really am.

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i sat down and started thinking what our friendship meant to each other.
i just have to get it in my head that we are just DIFFERENT.
i dont like it right now.
we lost that happiness of being friends already.
i am giving you time and i am also giving myself a break.
but before that, i just want to say i am sorry.
what can we do to get back to our happy days?
tell me when you are ready.
i am sorry.

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"Be still and know that i am God."
Psalm 46:10

all mine. :D

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i am happy. everything came in your own timing. (:

majesty majesty your grace has found me just as i am
empty handed but alive in your hands.

it meant the world to me when u said that two words. i know it is not easy coming from you and i was really touched. and i know this is going to make our friendship even stronger. thanks so much for understanding me and you know i will never give up on you. (:

i am sorry too.

love you dumbie. (:

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to my best fighting partner : we both know that we are not good at words but thanks a lot for the support and encouragement for the past few days. i would have gone bonkers if i didnt let it out. even though you can be rather irritating at times but at least you know me pretty well. so stop dumping me and leaving me out by going on secret outings. HAHA.

好想你 BABY
爱无懈可击我相信思念坚定在某年某月某一天有疯狂的回忆 (utf-8)

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so i close the past and look forward to the present. YOU lead the way and i will just follow.

the moral of the story is do not change people to what you want them to be. maybe it is time to give you more breathing space to be indepedant.

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just dont think.

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oooh. i piereced my 2nd ear holes today. HAHA. the only reason i could do it was because my sister was going for her 3rd one today so yes, i finally did it. but OMG OMG OMG. they hurt like hell right now. i nearly gave up when they pierced the first one.

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Saved by Your mercy
Found in Your grace
Totally surrendered to Your embrace
And there's nothing more than You

See Your perfection
I'm lost in Your peace
Your faithfulness sings over me
And Your love is the light of my soul

And I lift my eyes to You
Creator of the world

And I stand in awe of You
Of Your glory
And I live to worship You
Son of God, King of heaven

a long day at school today.
but this day didnt end happily.
i just wish i could just know how you are feeling.
it is tiring trying to guess what is wrong.
you say to just leave you alone but you know my character.
i just cant leave matters unsettled.
well, i hope everything is better now. (:
i will be ready to talk to you once you are okay.

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note aside : i cant wait for the weekends to start.
work is piling up and the pressure is building in.
but i am glad that i have something to look forward to in school : vcf!
going to take some time to sleep and do things that i like.

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